Thursday, December 31, 2009


Cuz this life is too short to live it just for you
But when you feel so powerless what are you gonna do
So say what you want
Say what you want

Monday, December 28, 2009

Sunday, December 20, 2009


I'd like to switch bodies and become a Na'vi.

Monday, December 14, 2009

So maybe

I didn't get to go out of state and run different types of terrains.
And today I guess I realized
Im going to have to suck it up and work with what I have.
Even if it means having to run the same RUN 100 times.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

I found a letter telling myself.

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most: saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing, and wishing you had?

Saturday, December 12, 2009

On the firt day

of christmas my true love said to me..


Friday, December 11, 2009

I am starting to dislike people who have a rapid change of moods over nothing!
I just call them Bipolar even if there not.
It is gettting really annoying!
At one point theyre funny and what not and the next you tell them something and they get mad.!

make me feel better

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Where'd you go?

I miss you so,
seems like its been forever that youve been gone
please come back home.
ok so im weird.
so what?
I put on a hat in the house
I sing out loud and sometimes even talk to myself.
I dress up and say I have a presentation.
I say Im british and am in an engagement.
I say stupid things as well as, do them.
thats what she said? yeah i say that too.
I like to tie my shoes, double knotted, im too secure.
I drink Vitamin Water and eat alot of pop tarts
I talk to people to know the size of their heart
I run 8 miles just for fun
I try to make things wothwhile
and after im done I look at the sky try to see
little dipper and big dipper and all those other things that
make me chipper.
I then go to.. wait I forgot where i was going with this. i really did
So im on the end of my third week going to the gym and although there is massive improvement like before I started I weighed 145 now I weigh 150. 5 pounds gained. I have not ran for about two weeks with the exception of this one and I think its time to get back on it. School is nearly over. My last day is on Monday and after that it's nothing but a break. Im going to be doing two a days. Running my 6-7 miles in the morning and working about my 1-2 hours. I have nothing else or anyone else to worry about so I think Ill do this to pass my time. The new year is coming up and Im not sure if I should really wish her an early birthday before the new year or during the new year. Should I leave the last comments in this year? or bring them into the new one? Contemplating sucks. but w.e.

I've set some new goals for myself and am pretty stoked to achieve them.

Wednesday, December 9, 2009


come back to this in a few days.
Im feeling pretty content now a days and dont have much to complain about.

haha mayb ill start talking about good things?

Tuesday, December 8, 2009


honestly, i miss my best friend from back in middle school.
I needa go back to Rosemead!




This Video goes out to Victors mean girlfriend who doesn't like me in the "JK" form.

i think..

Sunday, December 6, 2009

City and Colour - The Girl

I wish I could do better by you,
'cause that's what you deserve
You sacrifice so much of your life
In order for this to work.

While I'm off chasing my own dreams
Sailing around the world
Please know that I'm yours to keep
My beautiful girl

When you cry a piece of my heart dies
Knowing that I may have been the cause
If you were to leave
Fulfill someone else's dreams
I think I might totally be lost
You don't ask for no diamond rings no delicate string of pearls
That's why I wrote this song to sing
My beautiful girl

ooooo ooo ohhh ohh oh oh

One, two, one two three four
I wish I could do better by you
'cause it's what you deserve
You sacrifice so much of your life
in order for this to work

While I'm off chasing my own dreams (my own dreams)
sailing around the world ('round the world)
Please know that I'm yours to keep
My beautiful girl

And when you cry a piece of my heart dies
Knowing that I may have been the cause
If you were to leave and fulfill someone else's dreams
I think I might totally be lost

But you don't ask for no diamond rings (Diamond rings)
No delicate string of pearls (String of pearls)
That's why I wrote this song to sing
My beautiful girl

ooooo ooo ohhh ohh oh oh
ooooo ooo ohhh ohh oh oh
ooooo ooo ohhh ohh oh oh
ooooo ooo ohhh ohh oh oh

But you don't ask for no diamond rings (Diamond rings)
No delicate string of pearls (String of Pearls)
That's why I wrote this song to sing
My beautiful girl.

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Wednesday, December 2, 2009



I know, I know
You think I'm just like him.
Well, I am.
You see, I want to take you to a place
A place where you forgot you could go.
I want to take to you the highest heights,
but I know your scared so we'll take it slow.
You remember all the hurt men have caused you
I know you hold tightly to the pain,
Instead, I ask you beautiful Missus
Instead, say my name.
Close your eyes and say it again,
Whisper it as you reminisce
Think back to the time when, long ago
You enjoyed your very first kiss.
Remember that first time holding hands,
And the joy that came from that first love note.
Remember the first time you sighed at a boy
and the first "ahhh" that came from your throat.
Now open your eyes
and see what I see,
something so Ocean
in You and in Me.
In We.
Stronger than
and deeper than the waters my ancestors travelled
You don't know the half of what I see in you
So you sometimes are quite baffled
By my words, or my compliments but have no fear cause I only speak the truth
And there is no mirror on this earth
That reflects what I see in You.
You've been gone from me,
For quite sometime
But prodigal One welcome home.
I am a prince,
One day to be King
and beside me is your crown and throne.
Now I would never pretend to be your salvation,
cause that can only come from yourself,
I will always be here to support you
you have my energy, my heart, my help.
I know you thought I'm just like him.
but now you see we are not the same
So come with me lets journey to
that place before the pain.

I didnt fall in love

I didn't fall in Love
I've fallen in Trust
And to the both of us
That is a bigger thing
I'm not in it for the ring
Nor do I know what the future holds
So it would be bold
For me to offer more than me
You see
I didn't fall in love
Cause falling sounds like an accident
And to imply that would be to say
She wasn't heaven sent.
I didn't fall in love
though I've started to slip down that steep slope
I have fallen for faith,
for devotion, for hope.
I didn't fall in love
Cause to "fall in" would mean I'm through
Now if you asked if I was falling
Well, maybe that phrase would do.
I didn't fall in love
If you ask that's what I'll say
But I do look forward to falling
step by step and day by day.
I didn't fall in love.

Wait a minute...

As I Am

I've known you for a while now
after meeting down in alham.
and since that first night we met
I've been just who I am

We've been through many up's
and a few downs on our trek
and as we grow in who we are
Our journey let's never forget
The many times that we stood strong
when reality would say quit
How we held on to our dreams
And didn't listen to logic
At times I'm like a lion
and others like a lamb
but know I'll always be true to me so
Take me as I am

But help me grow towards the me
that I destine and work to be
through challenges and challenging me
My true colors, help me see.
I take you just the way you are
your far beyond beauty
but know that I will always strive
to support the "you" you want to be
My thoughts aren't always easy
to follow or understand
but know that I'm like no other
So take me as I am.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

loose yourself..

Look, if you had, one shot, or one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wanted-One moment
Would you capture it, or just let it slip?

Yo, His palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy
There's vomit on his sweater already, mom's spaghetti
He's nervous, but on the surface he looks calm and ready
To drop bombs, but he keeps on forgetting
What he wrote down, the whole crowd goes so loud
He opens his mouth, but the words won't come out
He's chokin, how everybody's jokin now
The clock's run out, time's up, over bloah
Snap back to reality, Oh there goes gravity
Oh, there goes rabbit, he choked
He's so mad, but he won't give up that
No, he won't have it , he knows his whole back city ropes
It don't matter, he's dope
He knows that, but he's broke
He's so stacked that he knows
When he goes back to his mobile home, that's when it's
Back to the lab again yo
This whole rap shitt
Better go capture this moment and hope it don't pass him

You better lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime yo............


I shall tell you what to the last paper i couldn't.
I will make these pages bleed, darker red than any vengeful kill.
These pages will feel my pain slowly healing..if not further destroying.
These pages ....
I will write to remember....
These pages will receive no mercy for i have been placed no higher than filth
Oh! how these pages will scream my silent rage!
My wrath will do everything but tear these pages that will transform into an escape
These pages...keepers of my sanity, protectors of my spirit, healers of my soul.
These pages will store my hatred, the ink will suck the poison out of my viens.
These words will take the weight off my shoulders and these sentences will give me back everything that was taken.
Oh! how these pages will suffer...
Oh! how these pages will see the miserable life i led...
Paper Oh Paper are you ready for me???
Paper Oh Paper my words will last forever while i slowly fade...


i used to want this shit forever; ya'll can have it back

Who stone?

Who's ton?